feel like ngerepak lok.

has anyone told you that the heat in Kuching nowadays are unbearable?
the heat drives me nuts! lekak mandik eh, berpeloh agik. tidor berdepan dgn kipas eh, peloh juak. sik mok masang aircond jak jak. bil electric mahal dow!!! gelap gelita dah rumah tok. i switch off the light at living room. sigh.

work too is "overloaded". oh the job? its tough as fuck i tell you.
since monday, my desk has been buried with projects after projects. if it wasnt researches, 3D doodling, and some interior work proposal. yes.im the first interior designer that ever work there. before this, they never paid any attention to interior stuff. Now, taking an advantage of a fresh graduate like yours truly..sigh..

the architects i tell you are no fun people. serious kali juak muka.muka jaik! ahahaha sikda laa..sik jaik..bagus muka sidak..cuma ya la tek..too serious..TOO serious..
those draughpersons..they are kinda nice people there (at my work place) and those from admin too. some of them even came up to the designer's room to checked on me..ahaha yours truly got some stalker now people..be envy, be very envy.. and yeah, last friday, i was on overtime till 7pm or something..damn tired i tell you..

home sweet home.my home is no longer sweet as it used to be. my family and i barely eat dinner together anymore. ah choon is also no longer around.hes going places you know. mex and mama are way too busy to find "kantao". kak tiah too, gago dengan handfon nya and kak timah rumah sebelah.so, basically, i spent most of my time in front of my pc and my beloved tv. nek nah, minding her own business.now she's sleeping like a baby for 24 hours straight already. sigh. changed her diaper just now. lap nya pun muka, kak ya nya sambong tidor balit. sunyik aku tok dirumah. sik boring.cuma sunyik.

i dream of a guy that..is for me and only me.

you know, i've always dream of a guy that is perfect in my eyes and in my mind.
selalunya, i drooled over celebrities that is like that. doesnt matter black, white or yellow.
dari dolok agik.ingat agik time kecik kecik, nang gila dengan yusry KRU, nick carter BSB, scott robinson 5ive..eh, selalunya nok dalam boy band ya bah. tension aisyah dengar cerita aku that apparently sungguh ridicoulous ya. thanks babe for your ears. kak phyda pun sama.nya setia dgn AJ BSB. i think, some thing never change. im still like that. sik duli apa kata orang madah nick ya pelik la, chester ya a freak kah, yusry ya kurus gilak la.sampei ada juak orang madah i live a sad life. living in the world of infatuation and admiration and sadra sadra sadra. (who doesn't?) chester bennington LP, T.I. pharell, jason wade lifehouse, nok laki laki dalam boys over flower ya, ahahahah.SEMUANYA. who else, oh ya, recently the boys from the big bang..*hawtness explosion*

bibir ya..

ya la tek, ciri ciri nok best,
IM A SUCKER FOR a GENTLEMAN OK,
not selfish.not cheapskate.a good listener, someone who i can have a good conversation with, nya tetak dgn joke aku nok sik berapa lawak ya (nang sik lawak pun)!PANDEI (sapa suka laki bodo? padah dgn aku lok)..those who can read me well..(ahh..that would be a +++) can stand whatever crap i have to put him in to.respectful!bait la.sapa suka nok jaik.gila nak? even tho i like em bad ass type, from their look ajak.bukan perangei.TALENTED.
sexy lips, body yang best, dreamy eyes, sik ada bad hair day, bau nyaman, MANDIK!, tinggi, gigi mesti kacak dan bersih. kulit berkualiti (paham paham lah). pandei bergaya (rasa dirik cute)..yikes! i like! eh, mun cerita hal ciri ciri tok, sik akan abis sampei bila bila eh.

body ini best?ya ya.sangat best.

tapi nak, nok pernah suka dgn aku eh, i must say..nang sik ada nok kedak di mentioned above.
most of them are losers, BIG TIME LOSERS. but then again, who am i to tell that they are losers.ok, check history lok. mun cdak main dadah, bercampor dgn miak berolah di sekolah, nok selalu escape, ngeso olah rasa terer depan org rami..bukan loser kah? rasa dirik best sik tentu pasal..nok kedak ya lah.and they're not even smart people.i attract losers.yeah.so not proud of it.

truth is, my reality sucks big time.when it comes to boys especially.nok pernah suka dgn aku, sik pernah nok bagus. ada ajak slack! nok aku suka, sik pernah suka dgn aku balit. maka ya la nok penting nak.

i've dated a few people for the past 5 years.and i have always had a good time with them. but, such happiness, lasts for a while ajak.none of them would wanna take it to the next level. (not making out or anything like that)..just to see where does this thing will lead us. eh, this doesnt sound right. usually, i would run away from them. i fear them commitment. they scared the hell outta me.i would do crazy thing to get away from them.trashing them in the internet included.not a mature way to deal with such thing.i know.


but here i am.still waiting for the right person to come along. not desperate, not lonely or anything like that. because i know he is somewhere, with the wrong woman perhaps, and probably looking for me too. aah.such innocent thoughts.that can't be right, right? i dunno. life is unpredictable ey. who knows who will end up with who, ey? best oo mun ada laki nok gila dgn kita kdak kita gila dgn cdak.aaah.obsessed with each other? yum yum.kedak durian jak rasanya.

hypocrisy is a way to live

Who doesn't?
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Happy "Friendship" day everyone
>1st aug 09<

young folks

Lyrics to Young Folks :
If i told you things i did before
told you how i used to be
would you go along with someone like me
if you knew my story word for word
had all of my history
would you go along with someone like me

i did before and had my share
it didn't lead nowhere
i would go along with someone like you
it doesn't matter what you did
who you were hanging with
we could stick around and see this night through

and we don't care about the young folks
talkin' 'bout the young style
and we don't care about the old folks
talkin' 'bout the old style too
and we don't care about their own faults
talkin' 'bout our own style
all we care 'bout is talking
talking only me and you

usually when things has gone this far
people tend to disappear
no one will surprise me unless you do

i can tell there's something goin' on
hours seems to disappear
everyone is leaving i'm still with you

it doesn't matter what we do
where we are going too
we can stick around and see this night through

talking only me and you
talking only me and you

isik ada orang peduli

isik ada orang peduli
isik ada orang peduli
isik ada orang peduli
isik ada orang peduli
isik ada orang peduli
isik ada orang peduli
isik ada orang peduli
isik ada orang peduli
isik ada orang peduli
isik ada orang peduli
isik ada orang peduli

berita bait / burok dari aku isik ada orang peduli.
baruk tauk ari tok.
sigh.
my existence in this world seems pointless.
might as well i die.

i got that friggin' job!

YIPPPIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

just had an interview at PU architects (somewhere near bormil and studio 23).
yours truly, got a job as an architect's assistant.
i will probably do lots of 3D and some model.
the benefits are quite good (medical insurance and stuff), so as the salary.
i think i finally can shop till i drop for this coming syawal.
working 5 times a week, from 8.30-5. pretty good deal ey?
going to start working in august.

so, as simple as that for my update, and im going to savour my last holidays with good friends and family.

~cheerio~
wish me luck on my new job, k~

im in LOVE

with this dude (g-dragon) ..
*melt*

i heart his tattoo. i find it too sexy eh on him. he has others tattoo on both of his arms.
one saying "moderator" and the other one saying "Dolce Vita".
for a second there i totally forgot about TOP.sigh.

i had a BLAST~

~my graduation ceremony baby!~

from left: imann, wa hel, me and alany

with my lovely mama

This past weekend I had one of the most fun times I've ever had..

great food

great weekend

great people

great conversations

great company

and most importantly,my loved ones were there and i could not asked for more..

i heart em bad ass boys

oh Lord..find me someone like TOP alright..?


Soo errmm. I Am back from my wild wild fantasy land, despite my busy schedule i still have time to fantasized ok.

I have a love interest (more like a lust interest sebenarnya) in TOP from the band named BIG BANG..

He looked like Hatake Kakashi to me. You see, with the hair and the mouth mask..
Dah la rupa gaox. Bad ass with long legs and nice watches. I don't mind the attitude.

those "charisma" sigh.
:Where aar do I find such a dude?
: yeerr NuRuL..what's up with the word "charisma"?
:You never use that word before.
:Damn ramen soup-family outing, im addicted to the programme already..
:especially with Top as a family guest right?
:yeay


yea baby, pout that lips like you never pout before..

ok I'll give you a fist bump..
haik!
Personally, i dont like seeing TOP in pictures..it seemed unreal to me
i like him in "action". you know, with the talking, the glare and not to mention the smirk he has on his face when he smiles.
*melting*

time to kill

i am not ready to kill the interview tomorrow like i ever kill an interview before.

so umm, yeah, Soon ONN Furniture's Roland, called me this morning, telling me there's 2 post for designers available and he wants to interview kelvin and I and see whether we have improved since the last semesters.

honestly, i dont feel like being interviewed right now. i have so many things to do this week and the next week after that.

i dont even have my portfolio with me at this moment and all i have is a softcopy of my portfolio, name cards and my CV. im not ready. im soo not ready.

after the interview,i have to set up the graduation exhibition for this Satuday Event in campus. feel free to come. i'll "welcome" you alright.

what a bummer. Ika's wed is on the very same day as the Exhibition.what to wear.what to wear.yea, i bought the lingerie already, and believe me, it's decent alright.

oh July, do me good, k?

thoughts

-->
Come to think again, there is no such thing as a "Perfect Life".
So, i take back my words.

-->
“The world has enough for man’s need,
but not for man’s greed”,
Mahatma Ghandi. (took it from someone's blog eh)
^.^"

040709

sigh. a good friend of mine is getting married on the above date. i know. God bless America. i don't know what to give her.i wish i can have something that can made by my own hand.but i have no time for all of that. perhaps, a sexy lingerie? afterall, it is for the "wife" to wear, and for the "hubby" to be mesmerized.what say you?

i'm telling you, this girl has a perfect life. perfect i tell you. PERFECT.
she has it all. brain, beauty, money, career, great heart, great attitude, great love life, great family, great friends (?????).everything about her is great. you can't hate her.plus, she has a great sense of humor. that's important!

so, this post, is simply dedicated to my good friend, Rafika Dewi and her husband to be, Fairuz Syah..may God bless you like He blessed America...


just kidding!



lots of love,
~NuRuL~

yeay!school is out baby!

am getting my diploma pretty soon.insyaallah..hopefully, nothing will change it.

-us-

went to kem permai on friday.and i had a blast.
me loving the jungle pool big time.

yeah..i dont need a lifeguard.. i need a hero.. a-well-hunk-billionaire-with wings!

i personally love these four picture's effect.
love it love it love it.
i hope i can go there, again.
soon.
i promise myself that.

because you are my girl

you see me fall (so many times)
you share my pride and joy (not so many times)
you see my tears (most of the time)
you share my sadness and sorrow (all the time)
...............................
we've known each other for too long already.
please, don't judge me and please don't think any less of me

because you are my girl.

girl..by kci & jojo

just another old song that has been in my mind lately.



Baby I was willing to give you all of my love
Baby I was willing to give you all of my time
Just so we could be together
And share a love to last forever
And that’s when you came and said to me
That we should spend some time, apart
Why did you go and do that
Baby I just can’t take it
If you don’t want me, tell me
Girl if you don’t really love me
Just let me know what you see
On the way shouldn’t be
Girl if you don’t really love me
Just let me go, let me be
So I can find someone to love me
Ba ba ba ba ba da da
Ba ba ba ba ba da da
Ba ba ba ba ba da da
Why did you do this to me
Ba ba ba ba ba da da
Ba ba ba ba ba da da
Why did you do this to me
What kind of man do you think that I am
To let you play with my heart
And what kind of fool do you take me for baby
I just won’t stand for it anymore
Girl, if you don’t really love me
Just let me know what you see
On the way shouldn’t be
Girl, if you don’t really love me
Just let me go, let me be
So I can find someone to love me
Girl tell me do you want me

BOO-T STOOL part 2

wanna see my baby?
I DESIGNED IT, I MADE IT.

4 weeks of blood, sweat and tears,
kimak nyamok di forestry, loving airport's mcD,
long drive to 7th mile every morning,
carpentry has become one of my passion.my soo called "therapy"
but really la, while im at it, i feel calm and collected
then when i got home, im too tired to think about anything.
nice ey?

takin' a U-turn

i need my jacob now. screw edward. i want my jacob now.




nurul is in the "u-turn" mode.
how did i live before all of these?
oh ya..by being nothing that is.
nothingness is a way to live.
ok, im out of word now.

woah...when reality strikes,

just when i thought i could lift up my feet from the ground, REALITY came and crashed me back to this sucky world. thanks for the beautifool memories.

changes and ...

now now..everyone seems to changed their blog addresses yes? go tumblr!

changes is good.
changes is fun.
i do believe in changes.
i just think that changes wont be happening to me anytime soon.
at least not for now.

i just had my FINAL YEAR PROJECT PRESENTATION -THE RECEPTION HALL today.
MY LECTURER, helena told us that we are going to have our graduation ceremony in Cyberjaya on the 11th july 2009..about 3 weeks plus left ey? i have a few days to decide to go or not to go. my mum is super excited to go tho..and somebody in KL too, is already excited about it.. who ar? who ar? who ar? LoL

from left: Rose, Wong See hui, NURULAINSITIHASIAH, Dennis Chung, Kelvin Kong, Henry Ling and Wilson Yeo
i have another presentation for my furniture design project on Wednesday and a thesis to be completed by next week..i need a break..like..PRONTO..

With one of our lecturers, Azizan B. Yatim


Practice lok!Kelvin- rehearsal

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now, i have a confession to make. i dont like what i do anymore.

update update

yerr..sapa la gago dgn aku pun update oo..macam laa rami org gago hal aku..

hello world..it's been a while since i last post something in my blog..

its been great and miserable weeks for me la..

3 weeks no internet? slowly i think im dying..

that is one of the things that keep me civilized (all this while)..

now, im using aina's lappy to blog.sosadsosadsosad.

when enuff is not enuff.

great things happened to me last week.well, sorta.

great companion, great activity, great walk, great conversation, great expectation.lol.

"i like you i like you i like you.

i dont know what to do about it.

can't i just say what i feel?"

dont mind me rambling here please..i slept for like 2 hours last night and i kinda FUBAR.

my finals, next week. i havent do my model, my boo-t stool has yet to be finished and im pretty much screwed because the model is so friggin' hard to do and i need more hand to get it done in time.

me missing someone badly laar.i dont like it. i feel week. 

now now, aina is making US dinner (MAGGIE TOMYAM) with the lid on..rasa macam dalam cerita boys over flower jak..eh..kmk ngantok..makan lok, then suroh aina hantar pulang, and probably get some decent sleep tonight.hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day to start on my model..woot!