my heart ache

i realized i didn't talk or write much about my boyfriend, Syafiq in this blog because i think it is best left it in my thoughts and my heart only. but today, i want to write something about it and i wish i could just forget this ever happened.

"when we did the right thing, people won't remember but when we made mistake, people never forget..." -Jarut-

Early that night, everything was perfect. he came to my house with his bicycle, and then we went for "night-ride" around the neighborhood. Hangin' out at my house because we were both was already tired of cycling.

Then we had a big fight on our way to send him home.
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A big fight to the point that he said that i have broken his heart and even text-ed me "please don't reply or call.."

I don't know what to do. Seems like he put our relationship on-hold\ hanging mode.
I don't even know why i bother writing about this.

I guess he tried his best to be a good boyfriend but in his own term and definitely in his own way. I didn't noticed it. I may have catch a glimpse of it but i think i was already too late.

April update

hello readers. Just wanna update about "things" in my life for a bit. nothing much, really. but im just gonna post it anyway for me to read in the future.

Tomorrow is our Second Year Anniversary.2 years ey. Cant believe im "in a relationship" in the first place. Honestly, we didn't have any plan whatsoever.

me: Tomorrow is 0704. Do you know what day it is?
him: The first time i take you out.

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Works been awfully a lot lately. barely have times to play Tetris (a computer game) that i used to play in the office.
i hate draughting. i make the worst draughtswoman in the world i tell you.
no more designing interesting space other than plain/boring offices and the detailing. been designing some corporate (the eff???!!) signages too.

really, im tired of work. my whole body, eyes and even my brain refuses to do another CAD sessions.

also, ive been working over-time during Saturday.
hopefully i can use and spend the money into something useful.
At work, i have always look forward for lunch time. that is the only time that me and my colleagues catch up with one another .

im really looking forward for my trip to Sabah this coming July. kinda excited just to "think" about it.

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im currently using my new and improved home desktop. feels weird ey using Window 7.
when my pc was sick for about 3 weeks (i think), ive been reading books and did a little gardening. tanam sayour sawi. tapi belum molah bakut. kelak ngatornya. nya gik kecik gilak.
pretty useful i must say, the time i spend while my pc was in coma.

that's all for now.