i'm waiting

miss Z: hi! When is your results coming out?
Nurul: On the 16th
miss Z: So, nervous?
Nurul: If i can pull my heart out and show you how nervous i am, i would!

Oh my God. if only i can pull myself together...
i think i'm falling apart because STPM results is coming out!

I can do this
I've been here before and i dont care where i'm going.
I'm waiting....hmmmm

feeling down

i hated it when my heart broke.
it takes quite sometimes to heal.
trust me when i said "quite sometimes".
i need a long time to get over stuff that bothers me.
it doesnt even matter ABOUT what.
whether its about love, life, family, friends, school and even the stupid stuff that certain people think or say about me.
it will make me upset, mad, worry, sick and at certain point i dont even want to see them ever, again.
i wish i can moved on, as fast as i could but i guess im just not that strong enough.
some people just know how to works things out and some just know how to change.
i guess i am not everybody else.
i wish i am but i am not.
i always want to makes the best out of me.
i do!
But...arghhhhhhhhhhhh, maybe someday..
Soon!

so,
keep breathing.

single track mind

I have know idea by being simple minded is hard.
Just letting everything pass you by without thinking that it won't affect you.
I hate to admit that i can be very nosy Parker sometimes...
well, always!

But.........
Its just that, its hard to change something that you used to be and suddenly you want to change and be a different person..
A better person i must say, "someone new". Someone who doesn't really care what would other people think of her/him and he/she always keep things simple as it can be without making it complicated.

Life is already short... So, why make it complicated?
I think this is the problem that i have to deal right now.
STOP BEING "KEPO"(BUSYBODY)!!!!!
And get my BUSYASS TO KEEP IT COOL!!!


yours truly, signing off..

and the ceremony goes

It was stupid of me for wanting to go to the engagement ceremomy (of my cousin)..
Why?
Because i dont think its important to go to my uncle's house
while all the adults went to the "future" bride's house.
So whats the point of going there.
So, i've decided not to go.
Stay at home and blogging..

So fellas, time to go. Even thogh i'm nearly 20years old,
i'm still kid...well at least my family think that way...
Especially my mom


keep breathing!!

ungrateful

i dont even know how to start.
my cousin...( the one that got caught by the police) is being rediculus.
after all that my uncle has done for her, my uncle ask her to work for him..
doing certain chores/work that cant even hurt a bit!
dare she said, my uncle is being annoying and out of his mind for waking her up from (her) sleep and asked her to find him a fail in his office. -long after the working hour was over-

then, she said she couldn't stand him and she rather stay in the jail (for 8 month) and regret for calling her family to help her!!!!!

i just cant believe that she said that!
its not like his father have to take a flight to go there and save her.
its my uncle!!!

even worst, thats my uncle that shes talking about.
the man who is very meaningful and important in my life!
he is my GODFATHER for haven sake...

she asked me to understand her. how can i? shes a liar and do drugs...

i do love her, i like having her around, i dont care what she did..but
i just dont want to believe her to say something bad about my uncle.. hes no liar, hes dont do drug...he is well respected man in this village...he is my godfather...
shes being ungrateful....

it makes me sad..

engagement ceremony

Tomorrow will be my cousin's engagement ceremony.
honestly, i don't want to attend. But my mom forced me to go.
since he is a close cousin of mine... and his father is like my mom's brother.

My uncle... the one that always be there for my family at any cost.
He always show us the happy face eventhough he's not happy or upset.
I wonder how he can do that...

I just hope that someday he wont go out of his mind
for keeping all his thought inside for too long.

So, that all for now bloggers..
Keep breathing aite!

bad

yesterday was over...and i am glad

just found out my cousin has been released from "cell" after been accused to associated with drug dealers.
they caught her while she is chilling with a few friends in her friend's car...which one of the police's ' most wanted car'.
after been arrested, the police took her and 5 of her friends and handcuffs them and looked them up in a cell. plain bad!

my uncle even have to take the emergency flight and along with RM3000.00 just to bail her out from the cell.
oh ya, that is the same day as the DHL's aeroplane slightly landed on the wrong land at KIA.. -mon,27.01.06-
fuh...if only he didn't came to rescue her, i dont know what will happen to her.
this whole experience is just badddd!!!

before i knew she was coming back...(oh, i didnt say that the incident took place in seremban, negeri sembilan).... i was hangging out with my best friend at kuching's hottest spot -duh- and we went window shopping and eat....
it was great until we found her brother (the fierce one aaa)
it scares the hell out of me seeing him and even worst, my friend doesn't want her brother to see her ( because she didnt tell anyone that she's going out to hang out with me. instead, she told her mom that she's going out to find a job!).
Ayooooh. it's been a long time i didnt feel scared to bum with someone...hahhaha, thanks for bringging it back!
this whole event that took place yesterday its just bad...

but today, i managed to purchased the book and a bed spread that i always wanted..
and advanced birthday present my said....thanks mum!
NICE