i dream of a guy that..is for me and only me.

you know, i've always dream of a guy that is perfect in my eyes and in my mind.
selalunya, i drooled over celebrities that is like that. doesnt matter black, white or yellow.
dari dolok agik.ingat agik time kecik kecik, nang gila dengan yusry KRU, nick carter BSB, scott robinson 5ive..eh, selalunya nok dalam boy band ya bah. tension aisyah dengar cerita aku that apparently sungguh ridicoulous ya. thanks babe for your ears. kak phyda pun sama.nya setia dgn AJ BSB. i think, some thing never change. im still like that. sik duli apa kata orang madah nick ya pelik la, chester ya a freak kah, yusry ya kurus gilak la.sampei ada juak orang madah i live a sad life. living in the world of infatuation and admiration and sadra sadra sadra. (who doesn't?) chester bennington LP, T.I. pharell, jason wade lifehouse, nok laki laki dalam boys over flower ya, ahahahah.SEMUANYA. who else, oh ya, recently the boys from the big bang..*hawtness explosion*

bibir ya..

ya la tek, ciri ciri nok best,
IM A SUCKER FOR a GENTLEMAN OK,
not selfish.not cheapskate.a good listener, someone who i can have a good conversation with, nya tetak dgn joke aku nok sik berapa lawak ya (nang sik lawak pun)!PANDEI (sapa suka laki bodo? padah dgn aku lok)..those who can read me well..(ahh..that would be a +++) can stand whatever crap i have to put him in to.respectful!bait la.sapa suka nok jaik.gila nak? even tho i like em bad ass type, from their look ajak.bukan perangei.TALENTED.
sexy lips, body yang best, dreamy eyes, sik ada bad hair day, bau nyaman, MANDIK!, tinggi, gigi mesti kacak dan bersih. kulit berkualiti (paham paham lah). pandei bergaya (rasa dirik cute)..yikes! i like! eh, mun cerita hal ciri ciri tok, sik akan abis sampei bila bila eh.

body ini best?ya ya.sangat best.

tapi nak, nok pernah suka dgn aku eh, i must say..nang sik ada nok kedak di mentioned above.
most of them are losers, BIG TIME LOSERS. but then again, who am i to tell that they are losers.ok, check history lok. mun cdak main dadah, bercampor dgn miak berolah di sekolah, nok selalu escape, ngeso olah rasa terer depan org rami..bukan loser kah? rasa dirik best sik tentu pasal..nok kedak ya lah.and they're not even smart people.i attract losers.yeah.so not proud of it.

truth is, my reality sucks big time.when it comes to boys especially.nok pernah suka dgn aku, sik pernah nok bagus. ada ajak slack! nok aku suka, sik pernah suka dgn aku balit. maka ya la nok penting nak.

i've dated a few people for the past 5 years.and i have always had a good time with them. but, such happiness, lasts for a while ajak.none of them would wanna take it to the next level. (not making out or anything like that)..just to see where does this thing will lead us. eh, this doesnt sound right. usually, i would run away from them. i fear them commitment. they scared the hell outta me.i would do crazy thing to get away from them.trashing them in the internet included.not a mature way to deal with such thing.i know.


but here i am.still waiting for the right person to come along. not desperate, not lonely or anything like that. because i know he is somewhere, with the wrong woman perhaps, and probably looking for me too. aah.such innocent thoughts.that can't be right, right? i dunno. life is unpredictable ey. who knows who will end up with who, ey? best oo mun ada laki nok gila dgn kita kdak kita gila dgn cdak.aaah.obsessed with each other? yum yum.kedak durian jak rasanya.