i should be happy today, but i dont..

it's been 51 day since my granpa left us..
i miss him sooo much..
seems like yesterday i was holding his hand..
the thought is still fresh in my mind..
i can still hear his voice laughing and singing..
takbir Raya makin suroh ati tok sedih..
tomorrow will be Hari Raya..
So not in the mood for Raya..
I am super sensitive/alert today..
friends and family are here..
it is just some of my family member are missing..
Nek aip and my cousin Nor..
Nor sik balit raya agik this year..i cried reading her Raya Card the other day..

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i asked my boss to have a half day off, he said yes. even better, he gave me the whole week off. The best part, he gave me "angpau" for Hari Raya. (really! ang=red instead of giving me the green pau)

Biscuits, Cookies and Kueh are ready
Kari, Satay, Masak Merah too..

Friends and aquitance didn't forget to wish me hari raya..

i couldn't be grateful enough for today..

hopefully tomorrow will be much much better than today..

Thank You God..

just not your time, G

urrgghhh...
so, Gerrard didn't make his 100th goal last night against Stoke City.
sosadsosadsosadsosad

it's just not his time.
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i had this weirdest conversation with my cousin, Jarut the other day.
we were lying on my bed in one warm Sunday afternoon.
i was hugging her because she is so irresistible to hug..pendek crita, nya huggable bah! then the story goes like this,

me: mun kawu kurus eh, jamah kawu pun aku ndak. (sambil eksen menjamah jarut)

jarut: i know! just imagine hoh. gene mun kmk kurus

me: ok, turn kmk gik. pelok kmk gik. (change position a.k.a mintak pelok position)

jarut: eeish..rasa melok papan. tapi papan tok berburit.

me: imagine jak aku gemok. gene oo.

jarut: ndakku eh.

me: care to think of any reason why dont you want me to be fat?

jarut: ......... *speechless*



jadi, ceritanya, I HATE HUGS AND KISSES.
IF there's any chance you that want or even think to touch me, SAVE IT!
I HATE YOU.
body contact makes me physically ill.
unless, i make the first move. ya, cerita lain...

IF there's a way to "body contact" me, let me be the one who touches you first! then you can touch me..get it!!!??? no? you idiot people! school high high brain no use aar???

soo much of a "STOP WAR, MAKE LOVE INSTEAD" or "LOVE IS FREE, SO SPREAD IT" spirit ey?

if i could tell you what's next

get high

drown me in your love already Torres!!!!

congrats on your Winning in Marseille..
how wish i was there to see them play..

Gerrard is my hero

singin' shalala

M loving the song by Matt Nathanson called come on and get high-er.

Looks like the blues are on their top form this season.
But who am i to judge. It is kinda early to say anything.
Damn you Scolari..you're good!!! wayyy better than Rafa.
But in Rafa I trust.

oye vey

Liverpool won this match of the week over ManUf***ers by 2-1.
yeahhhhhhhhhh

i would like to sing me-self a song.
"walk on..through the rain..walk on..through the rain"

and i would like to post some pictures of myself and my cousins..


me and boboy playing around with his phone camera and the three snapping panorama thingy..damn! SE models are complicated!



me, boy and jarut.. i look like a living corpse don't i? it is like the picture has been edited and as for my part..obviously it look like "cut and paste" hoh?..or is it just a bad lighting?
sigh

tagged by the tagger- amoi yg bernama yen!

1. If you would have to engage in sexual acts with a celebrity of the same sex, who would it be?
ELIZABETH HURLY

2. If you were asked to strip naked and then be covered in a certain material for a photoshoot, what will it be? (note: clothing or any other variations is not acceptable, however cloth is)
MUD

3. If you and your husband/wife/life partner are bound up and are soon to be raped by a rapist, would you sacrifice your spouse? (note: only one can be saved)
YES! TORRES BABY..I LOVE YOU BUT I LOVE "mE" MORE...

4. Well, you are in New York city, ala Entourage or sex and the City, which yould you pursue? Lables or Love? and why?
LABELS..IN nY, THERE'S NO LOVE...ONLY LUST...AM I RIGHT OR AM I RIGHT?

5. Name your favourite American Idol 7 finalist.
DAVID COOK..

6. The Deserted Island question: Who would you bring?
TORRES..and together we will make the prettiest baby alive!!!!!!

7. Name one crazy thing you have done.
confessing my loneliness to Mang..that was STOOPID!

8. To make things a little easier, future honeymoon destination?
EUROPE...INSYAALLAH

9. If you have superpowers, what would it be?
CHANGING THE WEATHER...kedak StoRM dlm X-men eh..bait bait jak. kelak knak pangkak kilat!

10. You get drunk, have sex with someone and when you woke up, that someone is next to you, who is that someone?
my hubby? you know, i know laaa

11. Name a classmate that you seriously hate on your high school senior year.
S.A.M

12. A position you would want to have in high school but can't achieve?
QUEEN BEE...You know..the leader of the popular kids back then...

13. Name a classmate that you would want to join you in your current university as your classmate.
IMAH

14. Name a person you know you love but never truly appreciate.
MEX- my uncle

15. If given the chance to fully restore and revive someone from the dead, who would it be?
KURT COBAIN? HE MADE GOOD MUSIC

16.If your life were a game, what would it be?
FOOTBALL...OFFSIDE, PENALTY, SUBSTITUTES, WINNER, LOSER, DRAW-ER, REFEREE, ENEMY, MANAGER, TRANSFER...that's life man

17. Do you support gay marriages?
no I DONT

18. Do you prefer expensive, branded items or inferior, cheap items?
BRANDED AND ORIGINAL...TAK MAU YG PALSU

19. if your life were a TV show, what would it be like?
LAGUNA BEACH?

20. Last minute partner for a project?
COUSINSSSSSSSSS

THE END..

**THANKS YEN..IM HONORED TO DO THE TAGG..
WOOT!

random pic

thanks aina for the "knowledge"...

hAIR issUES

IF I WERE TO ....


1) straighten my hair for this coming festive season...
i will look like 3 million of Malaysian (regardless man, woman, pondan or somewhere in between) that straighten their hair.



2) perm (digital/japanese, blablabla perm)

i will look like a million of Malaysian (regardless man, woman, pondan or somewhere in between) that perm their hair.


3) bob cut me hair (nok kedak rihanna bah)

i will look like a four million of Malaysian (regardless man, woman, pondan or somewhere in between) that bob? cut? their hair.

4) cut my hair short and then straighten it

i will look like a 200,ooo of Malaysian (regardless man, woman, pondan or somewhere in between) that cut their hair like that!



5) afro my hair

i will look nothing like Malaysian



6) perm and then highlight,
again, i will look nothing like Malaysian...



so.. do you see my dilemma?
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but, for those who know me better laaa...
my decision, is crystal clear...

I AM NOT GOING TO DO ANYTHING WITH MY HAIR,....
BECAUSE I AM SOO BROKE to do anything about it..


honest! ahahahahahhahaha

so i'll see you soon with the same old hair but my hair might get a little longer laa..
eh, ok kah?

note to ren:....

--- britney was smokin' hawt that night!!!! she won 3 awards. i cant remember another two, but one of them is video of the year, female...woot!

--- i hate rihanna soo much until my "hate nerve/ urat bencik" putus!
nya berduet dgn T.I. bah malam ya..dah ada chris brown,mok T.i. juak kah? gile! tengok idong nya lok! kembang kali juak! bangga ya!

--- im loving T.I more and more ..lol

waiting

gahhhhhh..im waiting for the freakiN' MTW VMA 2008. when is it going to BE air???? it says tonight, 9pm..but i don't know the Malaysian time.
i wanna see BRITNEY! I HEART BRITNEY! SO BEAT IT!



shit! the lonely hormones strikes again.
hold my hand. tightly.
yeah..i wish.
somebody. hold my hand.
that is all im asking.
somebody.

this week is going to be STOOPid.
if im not mistaken, on this 13th, Sarawak will have a public holiday?? yeay!??
but, in spite of the holidays, it is the night where THE REDS..is going 2 lose again..
the reds are going to face the ManUfuckers..in Anfield..
looking forward to see how we will lose, again, and again, and again over that shitty club.

oh ManU fans..how i wish you all, the time of your life in this shitty game! aaaarrgghhh
damn Torres and Gerrard are injured.
bulak sidak ajak nak? kak ya second half main.
Torres message aku malam tadik.
"iboh cayak dengan rumors k?"
ngahahahah.. gile?

LIFE IS SHORT

So, im done being afraid!

im done being undone!
I just want to sleep forever!

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Life is not suicidal. Life is sweet, if you're LIVING in it!!
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What am I saying here? Me? Talking about life? pfttt
Im the least person to quote things about life...


BUT seriously...

Life is too Short...







even for short people...






LIKE YOU!!!!