so long march, hello april

it has been the worst month of my life!

1) urinary track infection and i've been seeing lots of doctor since. (try 5 doctors!)
2) work was plagiarized by my classmate
3) moto kenak pecah! sunglasses ilang
4) autocad software and files were corrupted
5) went to the clinic yesterday, got my urine tested, contained sugar!
6) re-do urine test (to confirm) which i was diagnosed with diabetes
7) today, went to the clinic, again..to take my blood sample (will found out in 3 weeks time) to confirm the diagnosis

could it be any worst?
when things like this happen,
i hate being

helpless and powerless to do JUST about ANYTHING!!!

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wanna see what put the smile back to my face?





8) and yea, BOF ends yesterday :(

***what am i gonna do about my tuesday and wednesday morning without BOF?
yea, sure i usually do my assignment during that time but seriously, what am i gonna do about this!!!


LEVI'S ANYONE?
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i just hope this april will do me good.
i really hope april wont let me down.
now april, be good to me ey?

motoku knak pecah (episode 2)

if there's somebody or anyone for that matter, telling you about "life is karma" tell them to go to hell ok!
anything that involves karma, i tell you..is PURE RUBBISH!

so, my car's stereo system was stolen (again) and so do my sunglasses.
i bought that sunglasses with the money that i earn it (with my own bare hands!)

the radio and all were stripped off. this is the second time such "incident" happened to me! sigh..i parked my car at my usual..somewhere in Nanas road.

and now, my uncle is giving me the silent treatment. you know laa, i can't stand that kind of treatment. scream, yell, spank me if you will..but not silent..please!

bye sunglasses bye.
im missing you already.
i cant believe i wore thee for the last time this morning.
that after all, was our last goodbye.
"charles and keith" will never be the same again.
at least for my eyes.
you are after all, my one of a kind sunglasses that i had.
you served me well.
you protected my eyes for the sun.

oh man, i really suck at writing am i?

"take care"

umm..for this past 2 weeks, ive been seeing 4 doctors already. it hurts everytime i pee and it is no longer a pleasure.sigh.

i think i've commented on someone's blog years ago about saying "take care" to end our conversation. itok tok teh.
hehehe

i remember the message that my Aisyah gave me the other night. (me like it!)
it goes something like this;

aisyah: cta apa kt hallmark.ths s a hectic week! Pande craving my mom's mee jawa indah. U take care nurul: sik tauk title apa.. tell me, how 2 "take care".. u have fun in melaka aite.. aisyah: take care- mium aik byk2, makan ubat, dgr kata doktor, dgr kata mama ktk, avoid collectiong germs, tahan iman ngan laki hensem. nurul: AHAHAHAHAHAA,Nok dudi skali ya ada susah ckt!!! dugaan dugaan
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yea..sure it sounds sooooo nice when we hear it. especially when it comes from someone you adore. but what about strangers? do they really mean what they say? or that is just a way they're being polite?

me and my social life..cant never go along well.. no wonder i $@#%%^&%*^& all the time..

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IT has been a happy happy week too..
trust me, it has nothing to do with my reality life..
HONEST!


THANX dOC!
I heart YOU ALL~

there's something about minimalism

If i were to marry Yun Ji Hoo (so called the character from BOF) our house should look something like these: -

our bedroom (pretty sexy ey? living proof where LESS is MORE!)

our living room (on the couch)
gotta love the piano and the painting tho

our bathroom (on the floor)

our kitchen (on the counter)

our walk-in closet (oh yes)

eheheheh..wait..since it is all plain and white..wait till you see this :-

wall of clocks.. (oh hell no!)

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uuuuu looks like somebody was hurt by my last post ( i hate.u suck.i inggar laa).
im sorry. i didn't mean to hurt or judge you in that manner.
im just mad at your insincerity.

there's a saying/qoute from a friend of mine's blog that i loike so much
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if you CAN'T handle me at my WORST,
then you CERTAINLY, don't DESERVE my BEST.

should i be laughing?

was driving back from afternoon class, saw a dark grey sky and suddenly i recalled about a conversation that i had with my beloved Godfather years ago.

him: angol Wa nak bayar bil telepon tok..tinggi gilak
i : bayar half half laa
him: ya abg azul kau bertelepon..nanyak org ompuan, "dah makan? kmk lom mkn. mkn apa oo? langit di ctok itam koh. nak ujan la ari tok. ktk dah berak? kmk lom berak."
i : HAHAHAHA.. biasa laa yaa nak?

and the conversation goes on and on..
you know laa..the typical questions that people used when there's nothing up with their life, apart from the routines..

i had a good laugh, really.. good time good time.

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im loving the free perfume sample that i got from purchasing my perfume..ehee
sadly, i used to complaint about it to a friend saying that it (the smell) was too "adult" for me..
maybe the chemistry work well with my body/skin..
who knew..

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champions league quater-final draw just now..

liverpool vs chelsea... again?????????????
ya sejarah mungkin berulang or not?

no expectation, no nothing. im done expecting.

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i peed blood again today. i went to the clinic. im ON weird medication.
going to get meself a full body scan and x-rays on monday..
wish me luck~!

Faith..i gotta have faith

wondering..thinking..and wishing

i need to surround myself with believer.. ( orang beriman baah).
those who have faith, but not practicing isn't really a believer yes?

it come to my senses that whenever i feel "lost", i don't really have a friend to turned to.
sure, Al-Quran ada.. but it's different from having a friend who you can talked to about "stuff" ey?

religion matter...very sensitive i tell you.

you know laa hows my 2 cents work nowadays..

out of control..

beyond words..

which remind me of this song............

"....Bila bahagia mulai menyentuh
Seakanku bisa hidup lebih lama
Namun harus ku tinggal kan cinta
Ketika ku bersujud...."

i hate. u suck. i inggar laaa

oh loser.

akan aku katakan dengan indah...

there are a few things that id like to say..and i wish you and "it" will go away.. terusss
i have to say it so it will get out of my system..heee

i hate the way you laugh..its friggin' annoying
i hate the way you pay attention to what i gotta say..and i hate the way you respond to it.
i hated it when you doesn't care what's on my mind then.

i hate the way you dressed up or down >.< i bet it's ugly down there!
i hate the way you brag about brands and stuff..trust me, i know better..! but i wont go around town telling people about it, you idiot!

i hate the way you talk, telling and spreading those lies like im some sort of stoopid. sure, im a fool in my own damn way..and that is for you to appreciate it..not to make fun out of it..
our conversation, seems to go to waste..cause it leads nowhere..i cant even remember what we talked about..that sad ey?

i hate the way you commenting my songs of choice for i know what i like and you dont. you've been living your whole life that other people wants you to live..but not you, yourself!
like you know music like i do music..ceh!

ooh, the cat. you and your cat. truth been told, im not an animal lover or a cat lover.in fact, i abused animal with my own bare hand. but i dont hate animal. im just not a big fan of them.

don't even start on those smirks!!! i hated it!
statements? i dont do statements..u did and still do..and you proud of it? oh come on!
action speaks louder than word..true that..you said it yourself..im totally with you on that. now that i saw you "act", oh boi, seriously..it speaks way better than your word..they dissapointed me..big time!

now, im glad you've moved on.im happy for you.it's good to know, you're not expecting anything from me.. because, i JUST saw the worst of you..

"that's for me to know, and you to never finds out..." spidey~

cheerio and peace,

thank you

my way of saying thank you for the small gathering the other day



my lover???!!!! {i dont have a boyfriend, i have a lover}
yeah this guy's attitude remind of my cousin, Azul..man..i miss that guy!
used to have a crush on that attitude..yea, i remember..eeeeeeee

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thanks aina, ren and yen for coming over and the cakes and the food..
and those with their birthday wishes..really appreciate it~
and ooh..the presents too..love it~
those who forgot my birthday..screw you!
ahahahah

my birthday wishlist

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