i know what i want

i know what i need

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-the end-

there's no me without you.

hey, another collaboration between my man, babyface and tony braxton. me loving it but not as much as i love "how could an angel break my heart" laar

here!
~enjoy~

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There's no me without you
There's no meaning to life without you
Tell me why should I care 'bout doing my hair
When I can't stop the thinking about you
There's no moon without you
There's no Saturday nights without you
There's no walk through the park
No beat in my heart
No I love you, No I can't live without you

You told me everything would be cool
Said I wouldn't always feel blue
How come I feel like a wreck
How come the skies are all gray
How come my eyes are all red
Why am I alone in bed

You told me everything would be fine
Why am I losing my mind
How come I feel like a fool
Why do I keep losing you
Why do I love in despair
When you're not there

There's no me without you
There's no meaning to life without you
Tell me why should I care 'bout doing my hair
When I can't stop the thinking about you
There's no moon without you
There's no Saturday nights without you
There's no walk through the park
No beat in my heart
No I love you, No I can't live without you

So blue for you
So deep in love with you
So hard to say bye-bye
When you know how hard I've tried
I, I, I tried baby
No No No No

dinner

for me, having dinner with a company (be it with my family or my friends) mean so much. i personally hate having dinner alone. it has been almost a week now, i had dinner alone. everyone seemed occupied with their own activity, even my mom. i even forgot when we had our last dinner together.

if i have my own family someday.SOMEDAY. i will have all my family member, gather around, say our prayer and eat the food that me and my hubby prepared- with lots of jokes and stories to be shared. every night if possible. cey...you think i will cook dinner by myself, you are soo wrong. think again!

i missed those day, when my family, sat down together, had a little riddles of our own and eat home-cook dinner. sigh.
i miss my family.

my granny is being impossible these few nights. mum has limits too. i dont think she can handle it anymore. babysitting Norah alone is a tough job and now, grany too? i gave up talking to my granny years ago. sometimes, it hurts knowing that granny is not granny anymore. can't even talk to her like i used to. sure i changed her diapers, give her bath every now and then, tuck her to sleep even. but i miss her, my old-granny.

everything is different now.

last december...

happy belated birthday to meeeeeeeeee~

thanks for the pictures syah...
"I" dont look like "ME" in it...
"I" happened to be more beautiful in the pictures, when the truth is, im not..ehee




pictures were taken by using an old film and old camera right syah?
no digital camera, no dslr.
i love that woman.

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been busy with work and struggling with sickness lately. struggling? did i just said struggling? but, im fine.really. also, been hanging out with aqeef a lot. gonna watch movie with him and aup later on.



was playing around with my phone at green gallery. this pictures was taken somewhere in late February i think? look skinnier yes? but slowly, i'm gaining my appetite. i need them food to keep me aliveee.

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just had the humblest birthday ever!
no expectation means no disappointment.
true story y'all.i don't write fiction.

hello MONDAY!

-just got my x-rays done...Alhamdulillah..my lung is crystal clear.
still, ive been coughing and getting a cold every now and then.

-been getting this head-ache for 2 days now.

-been seeing doctors and resting.

-been exercising as well and i got to tell you, ive never sweat like that before. totally worth it for 1 hour for some cardio-work and my RM7.

-been dieting too.less carbs more vege. im gonna be honest with you, it doesnt do me any good. ehehe just kidding. it does- for my bowel movement that is.

-today, i spent half of my day with Norah in my hand and it is not an easy task i tell you.
went to the immigration, got my x-rays, went to see my doctor (again) and she's there getting all the attention.

-my car seems to have issues and im not quite sure what happen to him.
nearly skidded at ban hock road this morning. maybe it was the tyre but im not sure.

-ok, im done.its been a long long long morning and i think im gonna rest for a bit.

you better start LIVING!

MUST.APPRECIATE.LIFE.
-simply because, life is JUST too short-

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Here's Norah. BEING silly and SUPER hyper-during the evening.

ngeeeee. aku sikda ngajar nya main dalam parit aah!